revmitcz: The bitch is heartless

If you got here via a link from another site then you may want to read the backstory. It is as follows:

1. The night we met
2. The night she told me about marrying someone else
3. The night I convinced her to ditch him, and come with me
4. When her mother went to the hospital
5. When her mother died
6. The ensuing torture I went through, not having heard from her for 3 weeks.

If you know Laura Olonan/Laura Little and you "just can't believe this" then I have some visual evidence for you..

1. The night we met #1
2. The night we met #2
3. The night we met #3
4. The night after we met, where I had her on a leash
5. The Vivid X-mas Party.
6. Screenshot #1, defending her lie about her mother's heart attack.. This was taken in case she deletes her account, and her comments suddenly "disappear".
7. Screenshot #2 of same. You might also notice that the User Icon for that account (aptly named "devil's concubine") is also the same pic from the night we met.. just, with me removed.

Now - on to the end of the story...

I can barely fucking type right now. I just witnessed a deceit so painful, so heartless that.. I'm pretty sure she's not human. I'm talking, of course, about Laura.

Here comes some unbelievable shit...
I was very very fucking worried about her, what with her mother dying and all that. I e-mailed her friend Alex, whom I'd hung out with (along w/her) a few times. And, I inquired about her well-being, when she'd be home, if she'd gotten my e-mails. Here's what I received in return.

Hey Mitcz,

Honestly, I haven't seen much of Laura in the last month or two. She recently got engaged, is getting married in April, and is moving to Texas in June. I'm pretty bummed she'll be moving since, yes, she is a good friend.

I don't know if you had any idea about this. It all seems to have happend quite quickly, but she seems extremely happy and excited about it. I'm not sure where you mean returned from? She was in San Francisco for business, then Texas and then Miama. She also had a brief hospitalization, but was fine. I just don't know how up to date you are on things with her.

WHAT???? FUCKING WHAT??

I couldn't believe it. No, he must be some jealous friend who just wanted me out of the picture, right? This doesn't happen in real life, does it?? NO, no FUCKING way.

But, then, he calls (as I'd ask him to in my reply - which just said "PLEASE CALL ME" and then my number). And, he gives me this address:

http://weddings.theknot.com/pwp/view/co_main.aspx?coupleid=3242969047374875

OH MY FUCKING GOD!!

I text'd her, and sent her a voicemail. I said "THIS IS AN EMERGENCY. I'M TOTALLY FREAKING OUT, I NEED YOU TO CALL ME RIGHT NOW". She sent a few text messages..

"what's wrong?"
"I don't want to talk"
"Just as long as we don't talk about me".

Finally, she called.

I said "I see you're home now". She said "yeah, what's wrong?" the conversation went about like this.. (not exact order, but her words are exact, I promise you - )

M - I contacted Alex, cause I haven't seen you in 3 weeks. I e-mailed him, and asked about your well-being, when you'd return, etc.

L - First of all, you have NO right contacting MY friends. Those are MY friends, not yours.

M - Laura, I've met the guy, we've hung out. i'd like to think we're also friends. Fuck, I was worried about you. But.. he told me everything. I'm looking at your wedding announcement website right now. When the fuck.... when were you goign to tell me about this?

L - I don't know Mitcz. I still don't know what I'm doing. I haven't even TALKED to Alex in like... 3 weeks.

M - Yeah, he said that. But, you two talked tonight

L - Yeah.

M - And you're still confused abotu what you want???

L - Yes, Mitcz. I'm still confused. I don't know what I want. I just want to be happy.

M - He said your mother was coming to the wedding, and that you're ECSTATIC. Is this true?

L - Yes.

M - It's all fucking true?

L - Yes.

M - So, you completely made up your mom's visit to the hospital, your mother fucking DYING, and all this shit about how you WEREN'T marrying Erik??

L - Yes. I was confused.

M - But, you're not confused - you're ecstatic about the marriage.

L - Yes, Mitcz. I'm happy now. That's what I wanted.

M - And you couldn't... tell ME about this?

L - No, Mitcz, i really couldn't.

M - So, you make up YOUR OWN MOTHER DYING and all this shit, just to avoid telling me? And you don't see ANYTHING wrong with that???

L - No. Nothing at all.

M - Holy shit. You're insane. I can't believe you'd make that up. You could've just told me. I fucking TOLD you to marry him.

L - No, you wanted me to stay with you.

M - No, I asked you to stay with him and YOU wanted to see me still. I agreed to see you, if only to give you your things back. You wanted to still fuck me as your bachelorrette present. And... I said I didn't know if I was cool w/that. And THEN the following week, while you were still dragging your feet - I asked if you wanted to be with me. You could've said it then.

L - No. It wouldn't have worked. I couldn't just.. tell you like that.

M - I can't fucking believe this.

L - Mitcz, I just want to be happy. I wasn't happy, and now I am.

And she hung up.

Like I said, I'm fucking crushed right now. I'm shaking. I can't fucking believe this. I mean.. how could anyone do this to a person? This is so completely fucked up.. I can't even... I can't believe it. You'd think I was making this up but I swear that's exactly what happened. Holy fuck.

The thing is... what hurts... it isn't just the fucking bullshit lies and the deceit. It's the hope lost. I sincerely thought I'd found the perfect girl. She was gorgeous. Great fucking body. Amazingly intelligent (as you can guess from her amazing lies), very successful, had a 10 year old kid and was still pulling in some $70k/year, and driving a Mercedes. Unbelievable this woman was. Too good to be true, I thought. I should've known. I should've fucking known. I can't get a girl like that. I was kidding myself. She was fucking kidding me. I gave up everything to be with her and I get shit on like this?

It hurts. So bad. I thought I loved her. I thought.. "ya know... this could be... could be THE ONE". I saw a real future with her. I fucking TOLD her that, when we had the conversation about her possibly marrying Erik Little (hopefully he does a search for his name and finds this entry). I missed her SO fucking much these past 3 weeks. All to no end. She's been home all along. Sitting in her apartment. Suckin' that guy's cock. Fucking him while her child slept. All the while sending me boo-hoo e-mails that made her sound damn-near suicidal about her mother's death.

Who fucking DOES that shit???????

I didn't trust women before. Just fucking barely. I thought I could trust her. I put it all on the line for her. You saw my entries about pouring my heart out, fighting to keep her. How the fuck do I go on and trust anyone now? Huh? Really. I just... I might even cry tonight. This is fucking unbelievable.

UPDATE : While I'm far from done w/this, and I'll likely write more as the days go on, cause.. writing is how I cope, I had to bring up another fucked up point. I just now finally read the wedding announcement page. This part in particular:

WHEN WE GOT ENGAGED
February 12, 2005

HOW IT HAPPENED
It was officially decided on our recent trip to Austin, TX, specifically at the Omni Hotel in downtown.

Feb. 12th?? That's an odd day. Why? Well, that would be Saturday. The very day that Laura claimed she went to her mother's funeral, and the very day that Laura claimed her cellphone's charger had been lost and that's why she could no longer receive text/calls from me. Odd, too, because when I called, it rang. And, dead cellphones don't ring. They just go straight to voicemail. I thought that odd at the time, and had assumed she was either so distraught that she couldn't talk to me, or that she had decided "we" were over and had decided, as a promise to her mother (who she told me never found out she denied the Erik Little marriage proposal) that she'd decided to marry him after all.

For the record, we also exchanged Valentine's letters and gifts a few days prior, on Weds. night, including a v-day card in which she said the recent events of her life had made our relationship difficult but that she looked forward to future Valentine's days w/me. When I went to read the letter, she choked up trying to tell me that she wrote the inside of the card before "everything happened" and she ran off to the bathroom to cry. I remember thinking it was odd that she wouldn't cry in front of me, and that her nose wasn't red, nor her eyes puffed up, despite claiming to have been crying all night. Again, it all makes sense in retrospect.

I will probably unlock the old posts I made about her that were originally friends-only, so if you're curious as to how my head was at the time, you'll know.

Further Reading:

1. The E-mails we exchanged after it was assumed she'd be marrying Erik, but still wanted to see me because I had some of her stuff she needed back.

2. The Last E-mail from her. Including the e-mail i sent her, that she was replying to. This should clear up any question of just how far she was pushing the depressing e-mail limit.

(more to come, as I have time to put them together)

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	nefas 2005-03-04 05:38 (link) Select
	jesus christ she's fucked up. clearly not an okay person. i'm so sorry that she did this to you, but not all women are like that. and don't punish yourself. it wasn't your fault, either. i am always here if you want to talk. hug (Reply to this)(Thread)

revmitcz
2005-03-04 06:46 (link)

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Thanx.

The thing is ... I left out a lot of the little details of the phone convo. Especially the beginning of it. She'd started out trying to continue the lie. It was actually a few minutes before I even got the balls to say anything about her mother, straight-out, because I was worried that.. just maybe, she wasn't lying. Or, at least, wasn't lying THAT bad. But, when she finally admitted it. Man.. that sucked.

Still... I guess it's human nature to wonder "where did I go wrong? could I have saved this long ago by being honest about my feelings from the start?". I guess I'll never know. And, well.. anyone that fucked up in the head to lie about all the things she did, I prolly shouldn't ever be with anyway.

That having been said, I can't say w/all certainty that I wouldn't still hate-fuck the living hell out of her. I guess it's my sadist side.

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	nefas 2005-03-04 22:05 (link) Select
	That having been said, I can't say w/all certainty that I wouldn't still hate-fuck the living hell out of her. I guess it's my sadist side. ...maybe a little bit of your masochist side, too. ;( (Reply to this)(Parent)

slaveofplastic
2005-03-04 06:47 (link)

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Fucking Christ! What the FUCK??? That...fuck...Jesus...Fuck...I don't know who does that. That's beyond psycho. That's beyond Cruel. That's institutional...Christ. I'm so sorry that happened, Mitcz. So, so, so, so, sososososososo sorry. Normal people aren't like that. People who aren't psychotic aren't like that either. In fact...maybe she's the only one like that, and now that you've met her you'll never have to worry about anything like that again, right? Dude...that is just...wrong....

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revmitcz
2005-03-04 08:44 (link)

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Heh. Nice thought. Now that I've gotten through that one person - it'll never happen again.

Problem is - I had a dream about someone asking to marry her, the night before she actually told me in real life, and it came true. I had premonitions and dreams about her (or someone else) telling me it was all a lie, and while I'm glad her mother's okay - it's still odd that, deep down inside, I KNEW about this. I even told Nad the other night and he yelled at me for questioning her mother's death.

That's one of those lies you're not supposed to question. Prolly why she told it in the first place, though.

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slaveofplastic
2005-03-05 08:07 (link)

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I had dreams about my parents getting a divorce, when I asked about it they said no - then almost two months later they did...dreams are a bitch. I certainly hope the one I had about getting mauled by some fucked up weirdo weilding a baseball bat isn't going to come true.

Have you tried burning things? Not like her house or anything, but pictures? Memorabilia? I did that for...something. Don't even remember what, that's how well it worked to get over it. I remember I had a whole shoebox for it, whatever it was, then I burned a whole lot of it and it's not only gone physically but mentally, too. Or, you know, posting emails and stuff works, too.

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revmitcz
2005-03-05 08:15 (link)

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Well, I don't believe in burning things. Though, I still have the unwrapped V-day present I was to give her when she returned.

Anyway.. no, I don't burn memorabilia. I hang on to it. I love that shit. Dunno why, guess I'm an emotional masochist in a sense. I wrote a song many years ago about seeing my mother burn a pile of old photos of this ex-boyfriend/conman she dated for 3 years. I thought the whole thing so odd, I couldn't help but pen something about it. I still don't get that.

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slaveofplastic
2005-03-05 16:30 (link)

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Yeah...watching my mom burn picture was what made me try it in the first place. I guess what's so...um...therapeutic about burning things is that it reminds you of how ephemeral it all is. The pain, the anger...all of it. One day it's there, the next day it's up in smoke and gone. I think it's just to establish metaphors, ya know?

I really admire your stance on this whole thing. The only thing I've actually read you say about her in a negative way was "the bitch is heartless." Kudos on being non-vindictive. I think more people should try it out.

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revmitcz
2005-03-06 04:12 (link)

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Well, I was a BIT more brutal on my very short and brief AMF Entry about this. But, yeah, I've been (thus far) pretty non-vindictive about the whole thing.

Interestingly enough, I've had many offers from other people (via private e-mails, not on this LJ) offering up various plans for vindication. Including, oddly enough, friends of hers that have somehow found out about this. I haven't taken anyone up on said offers, because I don't really want to get involved. But, it's humorous to me nonetheless.

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jcald89
2005-03-04 06:52 (link)

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Man... I'm really sorry to hear that, dude. That really hurts. The fucked up part is trying to figure out what kind of mental state would allow a person to think that what they're doing is the right thing. I've gone through the same shit, and there's no answer.

I feel for you. If you need somebody to rant at, or some help burying bodies out in the desert, just let me know.

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	revmitcz 2005-03-04 08:41 (link) Select
	Thanx, man. I won't be burying anyone anytime soon. I'm not THAT fucked up ;) But, I appreciate the comment all the same (Reply to this)(Parent)

	ditto what jc said mikeylove 2005-03-04 07:22 (link) Select
	i don't know what kind of drugs that fucked up bitch is on, but sign me up. i'm here if you ever wanna hang out, homie. you gotta get out of hollywood some time. it hurts now but your wounds will heal. then you'll be a super badass - SKIN LIKE RHINO. (Reply to this)

voysu
2005-03-04 07:38 (link)

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"Too good to be true, I thought. I should've known. I should've fucking known. I can't get a girl like that. I was kidding myself. "

Listen, you don't want a girl like THAT. She seems completely fucking insane and manipulative. It's one thing to lie about your grandmother dying in order to get out of biology or something, but about your own mother kickin' it to hide your wedding?! From a friend/ex/whatever you two were?

You're right, this is some pretty unbelievable shit. Wow.

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revmitcz
2005-03-04 08:31 (link)

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Yeah, I definitely don't want a girl like what she turned out to be by any means. You're right about that. But, I assume the lies started as soon as I asked her to be w/me. Up until then, I don't think she was lying. I think it was all on the level. It's her indecision that cause these psychotic lies.

However, I DID and still DO want a girl like what she was when I met her. Hell, the girl I thought she was up until these lies.. was perfect. Seriously, I couldn't have asked for a better girl. She was so perfect it was like a dream. And, that she was SO into me... it was all so unbelievable. Perhaps one day, I'll find that girl. But, it'll be a LONG fucking time before I trust that kind of "perfection" in a girl again.

It's just so hard to believe, even still. And so hard to just move on. But I will. Eventually.

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	voysu 2005-03-04 22:38 (link) Select
	Give yourself some time, pal. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	erictron 2005-03-04 07:55 (link) Select
	everyone woman is just a different kind of problem. That's not true, but i find the things i get most attached to (well, the ones that are alive) kick me in the ass when i'm most down. My job, my girlfriend, my family, my friends. Thank goodness for my addictions. They'll never let me down. The bottom line is that it sucks and i feel for you, man. :( (Reply to this)(Thread)

	revmitcz 2005-03-04 08:41 (link) Select
	Stick to the addictions, man. I definitely agree w/you there. I've even said that before ;) Addictions don't lie to you and tear you up inside. They may be bad for your physical health, but at least your head stays clear. Thanx, though. (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

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2005-03-04 10:05 (link)

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Oh my god. im so sorry for what happened....believe it or not i was in a *somewhat* similar situation just recently...where my then boyfriend was living about an hour away from me and because i hadnt talked to him that much within the last week...oh boohooo...he made up this whole thing about him having a month left to live, and not having a cure for his heart problem so he had to go into open heart surgery and blah blah blah...none of it was true. I was fucked up from that. Now its nowhere near your relationship...but im here for you if you need anyone to talk to. *Big Hugs* Smile, and keep your head up. if that bitch messes with you again, ill come out there and kick her ass :-)

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	erictron 2005-03-04 18:16 (link) Select
	shakes head It's so right. Women are so sneaky. You don't expect a thing them WHAM. They're angry at you. shrugs it's the way it goes. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	this cant be real. guerramondragon 2005-03-04 10:55 (link) Select
	you have to be making this up. if you're not, you should set her up with my ex. he told all kinds of lies like that only he wasnt as good at them. he also similarly destroyed me and changed my view of men in the way you say laura has destroyed and changed your view of women. you're better off without this bitch. want me to kick her ass? k (Reply to this)(Thread)

	Re: this cant be real. revmitcz 2005-03-04 12:15 (link) Select
	If you see her, I'm not responsible for anything that may ensue. Chances are, however, you'll never see her. She IS moving off to TX, after all. And believe me, I wish upon wishes that I were making this up. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	oh and... guerramondragon 2005-03-04 10:56 (link) Select
	that guy looks like a complete dildo. k (Reply to this)(Thread)

	Re: oh and... revmitcz 2005-03-04 12:15 (link) Select
	yeah, totally. TOTALLY. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	..and another thing revmitcz 2005-03-06 04:34 (link) Select
	Unless she was lying about this, too, my understand is that it's more than just his last name that's "little" ;) (Reply to this)(Parent)

	evilsinmyblood 2005-03-04 11:54 (link) Select
	jesus fucking christ! are you seriously telling me she faked her own mothers death....becuase she couldnt tell you that all she wanted to do really was fuck you? what a douche bag! (Reply to this)(Thread)

	revmitcz 2005-03-04 12:16 (link) Select
	Aye. Some fucked up shit, no? (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

	evilsinmyblood 2005-03-05 02:00 (link) Select
	holy hell do you want me to break my size 11 shoe off in her asshole? cuz id do that for ya! man im sorry about the way the shit went down if you just need someone to vent to feel free to hit me up (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

	revmitcz 2005-03-05 07:37 (link) Select
	I appreciate it, but.. if Karma works the way it's supposed to, she'll get hers one day. And, I won't have to do anything. Neither will anyone else. It'll just work itself out. At least, that's what I'm telling myself right now. (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

	evilsinmyblood 2005-03-05 12:35 (link) Select
	well if karma fucks up (like ive known it to do) im here (Reply to this)(Parent)

	sic_kitty 2005-03-04 14:49 (link) Select
	wow. i'm really sorry. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 (Reply to this)

gyokutogirl
2005-03-04 17:42 (link)

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Wow....that sets the bar at a whole new level in "what is fucked up", though I'm sure you've already heard that a thousand times. Doesn't make it any less true - goddamn.
In any case, I'm really sorry about it. II wish upon you the best of luck in getting past this and getting your trust back, and upon her a wish a case of flesh-eating herpes. Remember, if you ever need a NYC drinking buddy, or someone to administer a chair beating, or an alibi.....*waves*

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	revmitcz 2005-03-06 04:14 (link) Select
	Thanx. I appreciate that, been meaning to go to NYC at some point in my life anyway ;) I used to send her e-mails with your comics attached, and links to your comic, actually. She enjoyed them - so, yeah, we're both fans of your work :) (Reply to this)(Parent)

	jettremonti 2005-03-04 17:48 (link) Select
	I can't even express how disappointed I am right now. I feel like I should've had some clue (afterall, dealing with fucked up people is my major). I am formally renouncing my title as Lieutenant. Just know, I will be in Texas in May. She may want to keep a low profile. Payback is a bitch. (Reply to this)

	nellynel 2005-03-04 18:26 (link) Select
	Oh my dear god that's fucked up! Maybe you were right about fake boobs. Look at my mom for instance. She's fuckin' crazy too. (that's supposed to make you laugh, if it didn't...sorry :( (Reply to this)(Thread)

	revmitcz 2005-03-04 19:05 (link) Select
	Ya know, you JUST might be onto something w/this whole "fake boobs = crazy" thing. Just maybe. (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)

	hmmm fake boobs and crazy evilsinmyblood 2005-03-05 02:02 (link) Select
	pamela anderson=psychotic britney spears=looney jenna morasca=fruit loop my friend joi=flaming bitch this may just be a silicone epiphany were having here (Reply to this)(Parent)

tainted_dark
2005-03-04 23:21 (link)

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So I traveled here from

nefas' journal.. and I'm sitting here in slack-jawed horror at the actions of this woman. Talk about giving the rest of us a bad name... something like this wouldn't even cross my mind. I'm so sorry that you're going through the whilrwind of emotions that are bound to be flooding your head now. I know that consolations from a complete stranger are usually pretty worthless in times of emotional turmoil, but hey... at least there's someone out there that doesn't know you from Adam, and still cares, right?

Take care of yourself, darling. ♥

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(Anonymous)
2005-03-05 16:36 (from 69.108.71.37) (link)

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hmmm.... how odd.
fall in love, and then one leaves the other hanging while the one goes off to do their own thing to find happiness.
i'm sure you didnt deserve it.

buck up there buddy. you're not the only one that was left with a complex or two after getting out of a relationship. you're not the only one that will go through difficulty trusting someone new because of the selfish things a previous lover did to them.

that's life.

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About her last email.

champagne
2005-03-06 01:18 (link)

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I fucking hate her. I actually HAD to go through all my dad's shit and his house when he died. And I actually DID go through all that alone. That bitch Laura obviously can't fathom what kind of hell that is. To lie about something so painful is beyond fucked up. That is disgusting and low. Fuck that fuckin bitch. Karma's going to give her a WICKED case of the syphillus or something.

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ed_dirt
2005-03-07 09:29 (link)

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Waou, Bro. I'm really sorry to hear/read this.

I had a bad feeling about this chick doing exactly what it turns out she did, and I even mentioned it in one of my comments (I wasn't tryna be mean, but I did wanna give you a seed of suspicion because all kinds of red flags were going up for me based on what was going on w/ you two, what was going on w/ her and the engagement to the dude in TX and how "convenient" the whole crisis she was supposedly having was).

This won't help, but you got off lucky. This chick is loop-the-loop, batshit fucking crazy, and anyone that marries her is in for fucking years of mind fucks and heart fucks and having the rug yanked this way and that way underneath him so many times the poor bastard will never feel as though he's on solid ground. He will be miserable to a degree that will make the life of a meth addict look like living in Disneyland.

I married a crazy bitch in 1982. It lasted 11 months. I used to have some kind of weird crazy-bitch magnet imbedded somewhere in me because every woman I hooked up w/ turned out to be a fucking psycho. My last psyco-relationship wound up costing me a leg, and I guess that cured me.

Now I'm with a woman that is only crazy about me.

Even so, I did learn to spot the signs, and watch for red flags and you just learned some of that too. Anyone that would tell someone that their Mother died because it's easier than being honest about some difficult feelings (telling you that she was gonna marry the guy) and then SEE NOTHING WRONG WITH IT is a fucking psycho. You just made it through Crazy Bitch 101.

Hang in there, Dude. You got a fuck of a lot going for you and you WILL find some perfect-for-Mitcz woman that you'll be perfect for as well. You're right though...you don't deserve to be hooked up with some lying, manipulative, sociopathic, selfish, control freak of a poor excuse for a woman.

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